Thanksgiving Tradition

Here is a post I wrote Thanksgiving day of 2021. This was just a few months after my first loss. The way the lyrics of “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” brought grief, yet hope at the same time. Today, as I keep tradition and watch “The Wizard of Oz” again, I’m filled with something more.

Those ideas of “what if” or “why can’t I” will always resonate with me. After living the “infertile life” for years, a part of me will always question why this was part of my journey. However, the concept of blue skies and rainbows filled me with joy for the future. I will be 17 weeks tomorrow with our miracle double rainbow little girl. I know she will bring color into our lives and bring so much happiness. In Thanksgivings to come, she’ll watch the movie with me while wearing a pair of her own little ruby slippers.

Wherever you may be in your journey, whether it be a fertility journey or another chapter in life, if you’re feeling like life is still in sepia tones rather than technicolor, I hope you can listen to the lyrics Judy Garland sings and feel some semblance of hope for your future too.

“Somewhere Over the Rainbow”

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh, why can't I?

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh, why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh why can't I?