Choices, Choices

10/19: Trying to make choices when it feels like you have no choice is strange. My true choice is to go back in time and have my babies, but that isn't an option. Timed Intercourse (TI) is now also not a good option. 5 TI cycles have now failed. I hope SGF agrees that IUI is our next step and not IVF because I don't want to have to do that. It is scary and so intense. I want to know why I am miscarrying before doing IVF. It seems too financially and physically taxing. I am grateful to have insurance that covers portions of all this. I have unlimited TI cycles (except for copays). Now that feels like we can't depend on that. I am allowed 6 IUIs per live birth. Knowing I get only 6 chances adds pressure. For IVF though, we only get 3 chances. After that... I don't know what happens then. Tough decisions. I just want success- a positive test that STAYS positive.

10/27: We had a follow up with SGF today and have a plan moving forward. They said I could jump right to IVF if I wanted, but IUI is a good option too so we went with the less invasive option. My biggest question was, "Why did the second round work and now 3 have failed? Is there an implantation problem?" They said it is certainly possible and an option is to do a hysteroscopy. I liked the idea of this. The chance at getting a concrete answer is right up my alley. I am so sick of all the "maybes." I hope this procedure/ biopsy reveals SOMETHING!