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9/25/24

I am so SO grateful to be pregnant. This is what I have wanted for years. Even when I threw up for the first time, I looked at Michael and gave him a thumbs up. Today, I’m struggling. I feel like complaining about pregnancy is ungrateful and that I’m not allowed to do it. It’s so hard though, mental games aside. I am in PAIN today. I have experienced pain every day of my life for well over a decade, so when I audibly admit I hurt, it’s extreme. I don’t know what exactly is going on, but I have a theory.

Progesterone in oil (PIO) injections suck. There is no sugar coating that. They go in your muscle and the ideal spot is the upper outer butt cheek. I have a lot of padding in that area, but this long needle still stings. The thick oil causes lumps and bruising. It’s awesome. After about 25 days of these, my bum is in so much pain. There is only so much realestate to disperse the injection sites. This heightened soreness paired with my now too tight pair of pains I wore today… may have caused some muscle issues on my left hip/side/back area. I don’t know for sure, but I’m not letting myself Google it because I know one of the possible reasons is miscarriage and I don’t want to go down that rabbit hole right now.

All is know is I hurt. I gave my PIO in my thigh muscle and it’s causing its own kind of pain. I’m tearing up from the side pain. I just want to have a healthy baby.